No longer as before

Okay, so ya. too long never post about my life ah.
It was rather funny. Lynette and I was feeling down and actually wanna to go beach but at the end,we ended up at there laughing. but things did not go the same for night. So,it was your birthday yesterday. On the Saturday night 1205 i sent you a sms and wish you happy birthday and of course someone did the same thing. Not long later I went home and we have a talk on the phone. She was telling me that you replied her sms already. so i was thinking that, what about mine? I even sent you 6 times just because i am afraid that you did not receive.Second day i was still waiting. you still didt reply me. So at the end i sms you again then you reply me. I sent you so long, and you only reply me :Hey Nico. So sorry for my late reply". I just feel so upset. Although the whole day i pretend nothing happened and went out with Aaron and miko although when i am with them i keep on laughing but once everyone left I start to feel alone i start to think about you. then you told me you reaches ehub. so i was like. at that moment. I started crying. I knew i that i cry at the wrong timing wrong place and cry for the wrong people. So i took a bus to the beach. At there i really cry and cry non stop. Only now i know, no point.I no longer see the point. In the past you will tell me not to cry. Now i cry you dun even bother to care anymore.
Also, i saw her private blog, how she feel towards me liking you. my action. I feel so sorry and bad towards her. I didt mean to create triangle between us. I am sorry.

我不想再理，我不会再在意，我不再问，我不会再付出，我不会再为你而哭，我不会再因为你而高兴。